Why is it that we doubt ourselves so much? We can be over-achievers and lead a near perfect life(I'm not referring to me here) and still we doubt what we are doing. I have written two books, which are over 100,000 words, and still I wonder if I can to it. I have started about 27 others and I wonder.
Is it the nature of women and people in general to doubt what they can do? Is it a positive form of self-examination, or a way of bringing ourselves down. Maybe, it depends on how you use those doubts to change what needs to be changed and make improvements.
I know I am a good mother, at least I try to be the best mother I can be, but I still question myself and wonder if I could have done, or do better. Could I keep my house cleaner? Definitely. Could I be kinder to my family, of course. I could, and should, be more careful with money, but I don't go to the mall and buy summer wardrobes either. I gave up coke, but still eat my share of unhealthy foods. I could go on and on about all the things I could improve on, but is it empowering or demeaning? For me mostly demeaning. It makes me feel like a failure. I need to see the books that I have finished and not the 27 that I haven't, yet. I need to see the good in my kids and not the mistakes. I need to see all the things I have accomplished and not the things I still need to work on. Or am I wrong? What do you think?
6 days ago